well..today juz basically haf band pract...was very tiring..it wan an outdoor pract...need to carry brenches all tis....haiz...tired...well...juz a normal day...but a terrible day 4 me...a sucky day 4 me...

here it goes...first...the solo tingy...i am really very sad...weng kuan...i am really sry abt it...really reallly reallly!!!...haiz...2nd...being accused...n im already very very very pissed off...haiz...den i scolded shu ling...but it's nt her fault...io dunno y..i scolded her...sry shu ling...im really very shu ling....3rd...stand lost...im really very very very fed up le...still so many tings happened...already so so so stress....so tired...so frustrated...haiz...i almost broke up today...almost...my eyes were red...i was really very very very angry...but i controlled..coz there's ccians...n i dun wan disgrace myself too...although i did shout..but nt at my maximun volume..juz a mininum volume...haiz...i disgrace hss band...nisa jie...ruth...azlyn jie...n yayun...i noe tt u was nt wif me...but im tinkin of u...im findin 4 u...im searchin 4 u..but to no avail...so i juz went off.....jies n ruth...thx 4 helpin me out...=)...i really dunno wad to do...xin yi is juz so so so lousy at her theory...it's really very sucky...she cant even play trust me s'pore...n she play so so so soft...wad if one day..she need to play solo...n...there's no alto sax player..only her...how?im really very worried 4 my section...isit really goin to collapse? i haf done my part...the rest need to depend on the players...whether they wan to pract anot...i can do nth le...i haf enuff of nonsense frm them...i really haf enuff...when they dunno how to play, who will take the responsibility first? who will get scoldin first...NT dem..is me...i juz wan to return to the pass...b4 syf...which i last yr...which i can say NO to sir..i wan to stay in percussion...post, points is nth to me...the only ting is...whether i enjoy it...yes..i do enjoy it...but...sumhow...percussion..tis word...tis long n nice word...juz cant leave my heart...my soul...i really dun wish to shout at my section...really...it's like...very weird...serious..i dun like to shout at ppl...it's very very very hurtin 4 me...i dun wan to do it...but...they forced me to...it's nt shiok at all...now...i finally noe how li mei feel...y she cried...i wan to build up tis section...but...w/o my section members supportin me, i cant do it...i dun tink i haf to speak to dem personally...rite?they shld noe...how stress it is to be...im really very stress...first...prefect tingy...2nd...SL tingy..3rd...recruit i/cs tingy..tis 3 ting...the posts...it's nt i wan...im forced to be...no..nt forced...im chose to be...ex-co prefect...im chose by ms kaur and fellow prefects frm sec 2 n 3...SL n recruit ic...im chose to be by sir,mr badrul. I haf to take up everyting...it's really very very stressful...i juz hope i can return back to last yr...haiz...

bukit merah performance...is juz 1 week...left...n...xin yi still didnt pract well on it...she cant even play...2nd alto is ALL CHICKEN FEET! yang qi...i knew she had tried her best...n im happy wif her...xin yi...haiz...i really haf nth to say...im nt strict to her at ALL...i noe she hate me..coz i keep on pester her to go 4 band...i keep on naggin at her...tok bad behind my back...tellin her friends wad im like...wad's tis man...im nt strict...if she wan to be strict, i will wan her to bring home her instruemnt EVERYDAY.haiz...when can the nonsense stopped? NDP is juz two more weeks or so...n c...haiz...marg...i dun wan u to play 2nd alto...i noe u r a gd alumni..but...it's very rude...serious...it's very rude to let alumni play 2nd alto...although u ownself wan to play...but i feel bad...haiz...bar 148...saxophone part...melody...becum a solo...no1 can play...haiz...rachel can play..weng kuan can play...but lac of practice...yang qi can play...lac of practice oso...xin yi 2...but xin yi is juz simply LAZY..yang qi 2...haiz....

enuf of everyting ppl...enuff...juz hope tt nxt mon...no1 will pissed me off...once again..i repeat myself...im easily pissed off nowadays...u ppl can joke wif me, but if u c me angry or wad...juz shut up k/i dun wan to scold u ppl...esp. band mates...i haf nvr scold any1 b4 in band...except lynn...i really nvr did shouted in band b4...except to sec 1s...haiz...

btw, today me, yanni and eunice met a 10 yrs back alumni...she's a tuba n eupho player...haha..she saw our shirt...den we chatted happily...haha...she's a nice gal ya...her name is jasmine...so happy to meet her...=))))...hahaha....

first time brought a ring 4 a gal...pei mun...i luv u...oops...hahaha....shhh...

gonna stop here...im tired...so do u ppl, readers, rite?haha...read so long...a long entry 4 today ya...haha...=)...

i hate today band practice...the worst band practice i ever get!