WEll...aces day 4 today...lol...went to sch at 6.50am in the morning...for meeting abt graduation day...arhhH!!so early...dn went to the gate there to do duty...lol...den hmm..do sum warm up in sch b4 goin 4 the mass walk...HAHA...whole sch escaping frm sch?lol...including teachers...LOL...really look like lor...1000 plus students walk ard bukit merah area...lol..haf alot of fun chattin wif ms tan yun xin while walking...lol...was juz talkin crap and JOKES...lol...she's funny 2...lol...haha..

k..den went back to sch hall..4 concert..WOOTS!!!!the concert was NICE! FAZULLUDIN (hope i didnt spell his name wrg..)...haha..he totally rocks...he was SO So SO COOL man...lol...haha...a very gd percussionist plus a very gd break dancer?LOL....cool!

hmm...den went to celebrate teachers' day...cutted cakes 4 teachrs...lol..the cakes were nice...lol....get sum advised frm mr kaddy koh 4 whether shld i take POA...lol...he said "depends on ur interest...u can try taking it..but u muz work on it hard!"...haha...i will!!!

actually wanna go back pri sch..but in the end, lazy liao...den followed lynn, pei mun, becca, yanni and pei yi to mac eat...hahaha...saw yayun and weng kuan..hahaha...had a gd time dere...becca...u r SO SO So BLUR!!!!hahaha...so easy get bluffed?lol...=p...sry ar..i joined in..but...i did giggle when they were saying abt it...LOL..juz tt u didnt get my clue..lol....=p...

den went to interchange...the rest go tiong.i went home...slp...LOL!!!!

in the afternoon, pei mun called my alot of times...haha..but i was slping..so...haha..sry ar...lazy to get up...aha..until she called my another fone..den i woke up and pick up..i was SHOCKED "they say they wan to go ur hse now"...den i msg her after i put down...den she said they now outside my HSE!!i was SHOCKED!!!my hair was like...haha..kana bombed...lol..comb my hair b4 openin the door...blur lynn...kana scared by me...block the pin-hole somemore la...lol...den they came in..after a few mins...my mum came home..i big mouth..go tell dem today my mum's bd...haha..they went to wish my mum!!i was shocked...lol...well...haha..nice!=)...lynn played alto sax today...err...lol...gd la...lol...claimin that they were hngry...told my mum..my mum had no choice..gave dem sum cakes...lol...hahaha..=)...

den 6.55pm they went home..i bathe..den called my mum...ask her wait 4 me at tiong...need to go buy sth...lol...hahaha...no1 tell me tt 5566 new album released le...if nt, i buy liao...hahaha...

reached home...eat...den...err...do hWK!!!!lol...no choice...do finish by today den tmr can relax...hahaha...lol...so now, juz finished my hwk...hahaha...finally...lol...

hmm...kind of irritated by him ba....hahah

k lar..end here...tk cr...

happy teachers' day to all!!!...

Happy Sirs' Day to our SIRS!!!!

well...today...got back MATH RESULT!!!guess how much i get?hmmm...ahahaha...haiz....very...very....HAPPY!!!A2!!!arhh..i was SHOCKED!totally SHOCKED!!!i tot im the one who mr koh mentioned who failed the exam..n he/she is the only who failed it...omg...so scary..but..haiz...nurul...dun sad le k?hope she's fine ya...n i haf no more worries...hehe...den when i get back my ppr, i was so damn happy...35/50...converted to 100%...is 70/100...YAY!!!same as MY SCIENCE!!!ARHHH!!!!

tis week will be choosing the SUBJECTS that we are goin to take next yr...my final decision will be...BIOLOGY, MATHS(COMPULSORY SUBJECT), eNG(CONPULSORY), SS(COMPULSORY), GEOGRAPHY, N SOME OTHERS COMPULSORY SUBJECTS......as 4 err...the last 1...i am considering D&T and POA! my mum advised me to go 4 POA but i muz be very hardworking...coz POA is juz all abt maths!!ARHHH!!!gonna die...lol...but i quite like POA...lol...principals of account...hahaha...so..mayb will be choosing POA...got ruthy and xiu guan to teach me..hehe..i no worries liao..but only whether they got time anot leh..=((...who in band...who takes POA de...muz tell me k? i mean sec 3s seniors..or any seniors..lol..so any prob can go look 4 u ppl...HEHEHE...

After sch, went to mac eat...den waited 4 pei mun...wif pei yi and liyana...haha..crazy gals...tt's wad i can say...haha...go anywhr...take fotos...lol...aiyo...in NTUC summore...haiz...n im the photography...hahaha...but quite fun la...lol...JIE!!!LYNNN JIE!!!finally i got to take foto wif u again..hehe...juz get the foto frm pei yi...HEHEHE....quite blur...but nice...HHAHA...=))

hmm..still got wad???lol...nth else...when i reached home, i was lectured by my mum..hmm...haiz...nvm..heck care...i mean she lecture as nt in scolding...ahahaha...

nth much ba...lol...haiz...cant get back our hist result...both clashes wif teachers' day..haiz...=(...

k lar..gonna stop here...lol..=))...

omg..i forgot to buy presents k cher...how???arhhh!!!!lol....dun give la...heck care...haha...say no time..bz...hahaha...=)

tmr my mum's bd...hehehe

well...today boring..haiz...lol...went out to Sim Lim den to PS..wif my dad...wanna buy drumline...hahaha...but all DVD out of stock...VCD oso out of stock..very idiotic de leh...argH!!!i miss drumline...hahaha...

bought a new shoe oso...my white shoe spoil liao...hahaha..so no choice..bought a new 1...haha...bought it at world of sport...no choice...at PS...bata...noone i like...hang ten..dun haf my size..so go world of sport...then i like tt shoe..lol...den got my size oso..so i bought it..hahaha,...

in the bus receive her msg...i dun haf any feeling...neither am i happy nor sad...i juz read and reply...she nvr ever say OEI to ppl..but she did it to me...so...haiz..i juz dun care liao...the deadline is dere 4 her...i really dun care le...after 9 sep...i really dunno wad my heart will be like...hmm...mayb one sided love?i tink so...or i will juz keep quiet...hehe...thx to pei yi 4 givin me sum advise tt's really useful..hah...thx...=)...

the fone tt i use it specially 4 her...is now hmm...i gonna use it le..i dun care le...u r hurt...so am i...haiz...

why everytime when i type journal entry, my com damn lag de...only the browser lag sia...com nvr lag...lol...

k lar..gonna stop here...hehe...

hmm..firstly..i muz really apologise to my readers coz of my previous entry...i was juz angry tt's y u noe...haha...hope u ppl dun mind...but...dunno y...still miss her n luv her though i am angry...haiz....changed to 2 weeks..is 2 weeks enuff 4 her? i purposely put so long...coz..there will be higher chances of gettin back toegther again...i dunno whether am i right or wrg...but...tis is the only way to test her heart...her feelings 4 me...it's hurtful to make tis mind...haiz...

well..today went 4 a meeting wif Beng wei...haiz...prefects tingy again...till 12 sth...heehe...den..reached home...do chi project..can u bliff...i spent moore den 5 hrs juz doin it...my chinese handwritin tingy dunno y..cannot use...so haf to use han yu ping ying to type chi...omg...it spent me 5 hrs...arhh..more den 5hrs...i can die...haha...8 slides 5 hrs....if it's eng...haha..15 mins all DONE!...lol..

RAINBOW CLOUDS!!!omg....haha..nisa kakak...too bad..u cant get to c it..but it's very nice...lol..the reflection of water, sun and clouds so it forms a rainbow clouds...woots..the way the rainbows clouds are form..woots...so nice!!!lol...

did eng project liao...ready to burn le...juz lettin sherman check thru...waitin 4 his cue...lol...n the report about today's meeting..all done..tmr goin to do my chi article...muz hand in le...lol..if nt CA sure jialat...hahaha...=)...

k lar...gonna stop here...hehee....tk cr every1...

`luv is a torture to me...`

she's like ignoring me? im really very sad...really very very very sad...had the last ppr 4 today..sure fail 4 geography...haiz........lost quite alot of marks...=(...i scare i will did badly 4 tis term leh..haiz..i muz pass all..it's a MUZ!

Got back sum marks on sci ppr...did badly...haiz..real damn bad..nt up to my standard...i dunno y..haiz...

today...im really very sad...infront of friends, im happy...but..outside happy...inside sad....hope she will really forgive me...haiz...i really love her alot..n i really trust her...it's nt tt i dun trust her...haiz....

no mood at all to do anyting..really...haiz...k lar..stop here....

well...havent been updatin my journal entry for quite long...due to tiredness n exams...lol...been doin QUITE fine 4 exams ba...tmr last ppr...geog...hehe...hope i can pass all...

Been very stressful...nt exams..but prefectorial tings...assistant tings...tired liao...really very tired liao..haiz..when can it stop??haiz

isit really wrg nt to send her home? i haf lots of thoughts in my mind...mixed feelings summore...haiz...i really dunno wad to do...i wan to give her some time to tink abt it...but...the problems arise....haiz...it's nt her..it's me...isit worth waitin? if been askin myself tis qn...sumtimes the ans is yes...sumtimes no...it's nt tt i am jealous when she's wif another guy...im fine wif it..coz i haf oso sum close gals friends...i really dun mind...the problems really lies on me...i dunno wad to do...sumtimes i can feel sum feelings frm her...sumtimes i cant..i dunno y.."u" haf to understand my feelings...nt tt i dun wan to send her home...is tt...i got my own reason nt to send her home...dunno whether is it wrg...but...i will follow my own thoughts...i noe it's stupid to u...but..if u were in my shoe, u will noe how i feel towards tis relationship...it's quite hurtin 4 me..i dunno y...nt tt i jealous abt tis evenin tingy...is tt...i really dunno wad im tinkin...haiz...i didnt care so much abt me n her tingy tis few days..due to common test...all my focus was on prefectorial tingy n common test..juz tis 2..already give me headache liao...haiz...

sian..tired...stayed back in sch to study...tis few days only...lol..yst went to tiong...hmm....haha..lazy to type it out...lo...=)

sian sian sian..gonna stop here..haiz..really sad...sad...sad..."she" is angry wif...haiz...nt her..is "she"...lol..chim...but got logic 1 worz...lol..=)

I dun haf tt much mood 4 school today..coz of yst conv. wif pei mun...hmm...well...i tink i am too harsh to her in sum ways 4 yst...apologise to her le...but it's all coz im really very sad....tt's y...hmm..didnt really look at the words tt i haf said n i juz send it to her..pei mun...im really sry...i noe u told me tt u werent angry...but...sumhow i felt guilty...haiz...

today in sch...i whole day...(can counted ba) nvr look at her...except in band...im really hurt...totally hurt...i haf nth to say to her..i didnt tok to her...im really deeply hurt...it's nt hurt by her...is by...haiz...dunno how to explain...she didnt hurt me...but sumhow..the feelings...haiz...

played sum shiok pieces today...lol...FUN!lol...i enjoyed today's practice..instead of playin all the skills..today, atleast play sum nice songs..lol..=)

Hmm...yanni...sry tt i forgot to bring my pants again...hmm...she lost her shoe today..omg...haiz...=(...

k lar..gonna slp..nitex.

well...today..is the most terrible day 4 me...haiz...actually..i muz thx hui yan 4 tellin me all those tings...thx...=)...

after i noe tt she cares abt looks, im quite sad...haiz...y am i born ugly? but...is looks tt impt to her?i dunno...i really dunno wad she is tinkin...i really dunno...haiz...im quite sad la...den i do prefects tingy..to keep myself occupied...so tt i wun tink so much..haha..=(..

den...my fone spoilt...haiz...need to repair...idiot mum...ask her to go repair today...since it's juz 5.30pm...might as well go today..den tmr can collect le...haiz...will all my fotos be deleted?it's all my memories...nono...pls...no!haiz...got her foto inside..haiz...

I really hate it...y muz u 2 be so so so kpo?EVEN if i got gf so wad?even if i dun haf so wad?y muz u care so much? oso nt ur prob...i really feel like scoldin u...really...i shld lock all my tings...i shld set password to my com...n no1 will noe it...only ME!i really really really hate him...more n more...he's overpowin me...i do wad i like...i dun need ur comments...y muz u care so much? n my mum...y muz u listen to him? SO u wld rather trust him den ur son ya?

IDIOTS!haiz...gonna stop here...haiz...

I really tink tt by openin ur heart n let the person u luv the most to let go of him...coz...it's useless to wait 4 him..im nt bein selfish or wad..juz tt i really tink so it is...ya...HAHA..

well..today..hmm...SICK! WAS feelings damn hot...my whole body..woots...but i tahan till band finish..till end of the day..no1 noes..except 4 sherman...=)))...sherman n zhi hui went 4 band today...hehe...they played trombone..haha...i tink sherman played like killing chicken...HAHA...i was laughin..hha..even rita was laughin oso...HAHA...but 1 of dem..can reach till high notes...WOW!!!not bad...hope they will stay in band...HAHAHA...=)...den got 4 prefects in sec 2s n got 2 guys to pei me...HEHE..=)

AFter band, rita taught dem drills...well...den recruit ics takin the sec 1s squad...i wasnt takin anyting..juz walkin ard...coz ar..my throat pain ar...n sick..cannot shout...haha...den...walk to rita dere...c c...den go back...hahaha...hehehe..=)...HOPE they will stay...if zhi hui nvr stay nvm la...but atleast 1 stay?HAHA...

Hmm...nth much la...lynn jie...haha...thx 4 bein so sweet ya..=)...lol...

DIE! tmr got err...MATH TEST!!!i nvr study..DIE DIE DIE!!!arhhh...btr study ltr...hahaa..but tired la...haiz...lol...lazy oso..mUHAHAHA...

MS HASINA gave me the wrg foto...idiot she...=)...muhahaha...

hmm...su ying...thx 4 ur spirited away disc ya...i mean the soundtrack..HAHA..so NICE!!!lol...

k lar...stop here...nitex..=)

Let nature take its course? Let fate decides? I tink these are the best ans tt i can get frm every1 of u out dere...rite?HAHA..12.08.05...a wish...will nvr come true again...yes...it will...one day...or...it wun...4eva wun.....i wun set a high hope on it now...i juz tink tt i am a third party...but...haiz...if i were her...i wld haf gave up..rite?...

didnt get to blog yst...coz..im sick...n i am lazy to blog 2...went out at nite wif my mum...till 12.30am den reached home....tired le..so slp...hha...so didnt get to blog lor...hmm...yst got fever..but ok le...haiz...NT shiok..haha..i wan MC...i wan MC! but...juz tt...i really miss her alot...i really wan to be with her...always...but...let fates decides....

didnt do ANY hwk...haha..even sci..i very daring..haha...i cannot slack anymore..nonononono...but i nvr do coz ar...math ar...hand in on tues..so...hahaha...lol...only chi..haha...=P..i tink now i am goin to concentrate more on studies side le ba.hahaha...mayb i slack so much is becoz of band tingy...NDP all tis...hahaha...i really need to start focusing on academic side...haha...haiz...

wad's more...more tests are comin up...arhh.....can die ar!!!HAHAHA

y my com suddenly so laggy sia...hmm..muz be sumting went wrg le..haha...woots/...juz seen my system used...aha...no wonder so laggy...lol...

k lar..gonna stop here..haha...

i really miss her...hahaha...