Tuesday, February 28, 2006 / 10:57 PM
sadly to say...
well...i dunno whether did u realise tt i haf nt been tokin to u...even if i see u after sch, i will nt find u ppl...i will find my classmates or my friends....did u realise tt?i doubt u dun...firstly...nt tt i wan to do tis to u..but.ure the one who forced me to do tis to u..and to myself..it hurts me..but..hmm..i found tt..u changed alot...seriously, frankly speaking, im rather disappointed by u...1st..u didnt respect me as a bro..i tink u did..but i tink the respect of urs is different frm mine...but...sum are juz basics!...hmm...matual respects...respect 4 my character...respect me as a bro...hmm...im really...kinda disappointed...u noe tt...i dun like ppl to call me tt word...but..u still call me...n tt really irks me...tt really make me irritated...the attitude tt u gave to ppl...im angry wif u...shout 4 no reason?juz like few practices back...u shouted at me...at ur section..WHEN i need to do my job by confirming recruits marks...do u tink u haf shown respect to the recruit ics?do u tink u haf shown respect to the head?hey..pls..is band lidat 1?i doubt...u dun aspect ppl to respect u when u first dun respect ppl...i respect u as a SIS so much...i dun shout at u..coz i respect u as my sis...i dun call u names coz i respect u as a friend as well as sis...yesh...at times, im at wrg too...but...i changed it...and i learnt frm my mistakes...hmm...i tink...tt...now everyting is back to sq 1 eh?even others said sumting...which i dun wish to bring it up here...i really hope tt...u will change jie...change it...b4 it cant be changed...it's nt 4 my benefits...it's 4 ur own benefits...sometimes...the words tt u said out...are really ridiculous!...it's so damn fucking hurting...serious...jie...
WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO U?haiz...do u noe how hurt i am?juz the way u treat me...makes alot of difference in my heart...i've cried in my heart...i try nt to show my emotions infront of every1...but...i found it...i cant take it anymore...serious...reflect on wad u said to others...THINK BEFORE U SPEAK!WAD had happened....i really dunno..no1 noes..except u, ur own......i seriously tink tt...by showing respect to u ppl, u ppl nvr show respect back to me arhx?esp 4 sum ppl...u all noe urself..dun ask me..if u tink u are the one, den change it..if u tink u arent, den heck care...jie...i really cant be taking all tis hurtful tings into my heart and keep it anymore le...im stressed up...i've lots of tings to do...i cant do tt to myself..it's hurtful 4 me...i need the warmth tt u gave it to me past few yrs...i dun wish history to be reveal(ehh..i tink i spell wrg or use wrg word...anyway, u all understand can le)...sec 1 tt time...i've learnt my mistakes..and i change it...but tis yr..i tink..it's nt my fault...it's urs...the reason 4 me to be drifting of is u are nt respecting of who i am...it's really very very very rude of u...do u tink ppl will like it when u shout?i dun like it...i dun tink u like it too...so...really...THINK My DEAR SIS!!!!i guess..by nt tokin to u is the bez?u shld noe...how i react now?well...im wondering...do u treat me as a bro or enemy?tell me the ans pls...i need the ans...i noe tt u wun read it...but...well...ppl might read it and tell u or wad..i dun care...juz tt...haiz...u change can le...juz the way u treat ppl...in my impression of urs..ure a kind,pretty and innocent gal...WHO will always be sweet etc de..but..now?WHAT HAD HAPPENED...REALLY...I'VE BEEN ASKIN MYSELF TIS QN...I ASKED SOME PPL...AND ALL..THE ANS...ARE THE SAME AS MINE...haiz
asked some ppl abt HOW they feel abt you...well...most of them are negative?but some i dun agree...well..jie ar jie...change la...really...b4 i really turn into another person...infront of u...which i really dun wan it to happen...and..if u hate me and u dun wan me to be ur bro, PLS tell me...
k...enuff of all tis...had ENG CT today..quite difficult thou...ms joanna tan set it...o shit..haha...gd gd...but...her style still didnt change eh...haha...scare i fail!!!arhh!!..nxt yr my target is 4n1 again...math B, Eng C/B, Sci B, Humaninities B, Chi C, POA B...tis are my targets...cannot be lower..i shall work 4 it..=)...
k..im too tired tis few days..well..today despite the hot weather and tiring day, i had some fun wif the prefects..namely, joseph,gary,luke,yong shin,shawn..and...last...non-prefect but in our grp..si ning...haha..we played captains' ball..so damn bloody fun..o yeah..mei..thx 4 waitin...=)...i fell..and injured while catchin the ball coz..i didnt balance myself...so damn pai seh..HAHA..my pants teared...arhh!shit..but when i reached home..told my mum..my mum was like "aiyo..got injured anot...nvm la..i sew it..."..den i show her my injury..haha...nt tt pain la...=)...
k...done my hwks...hehe..except 4 chi!!!!and...ERRR....Updating of math file...AND of course...revising...=)...
anyway, CINDY clarissa...haha..haf alot of fun eh?so MUSHY!!!LOL!!!=)...
k lar..gonna stop here..=)
hmm...
CHANGE IT!
yes, you know i'm watching you.
