Saturday, May 20, 2006 / 9:41 PM
im disappointed
well..today in the morning, met janice nu er at the bus stop...as usual, she was late again..=X...den we walked to sch...hmm...err...she live nxt blk of me only..haha!..
she told me all the stuffs that had happened yst...well..i was really very sry to cheryl...im really cheryl...i wasnt scolding u yst...i was juz angry...nt wif u...
janice told me tt...actually...all tis only happenin to cheryl and janice..is their problem...den now...it becum so so soso big problem...haix...
yst...i hope tt it wasnt u who said it...but..after today janice had told me everyting...we suspected tt is u...who said it...coz...u were wif dem...when they were tokin abt it...haix...
today in band...i wasnt very happy...but...i juz act normal...she...made me even more mad..nt even me..to the "she"...im sry tt i haf to do tis...i trusted u...and now...wad did u do?are u a worthy friend?ask urself...IF u read tis...tink back...i've try treatin u the best..i try..and i did it.. treated u as my friend..i trust u...but...as wad u said..i backstabbed...but...i in return...u did more jialat den wad i did...i only say wad u haf done to my friends...and...u?wad did u do?
to u..i noe u haf ur reason..i've read ur nick..i will trust u..i almost cry when i read ur nick..but..wad i hope is tt...we can be bro and sis again...i really cant accept the fact...really...i really cant...i've been askin myself..am i dreamin?wad haf i done?i still treat u as my mei...which i noe i shldnt...but...i juz cant accept the fact...i wld rather u wun noe me..and we wun stead...coz...i really cause alot of unhappiness to u...im really sry...
"love hurt too much to be taken seriously. "...tis sentence..was extracted from mr salleh's blog...
http://natadecoco.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/...his entries were very sad...haix...and i totally agree wif tis sentence...do go read..he has wrote alot of tings inside...which can help us...to understand life btr...to treasure it btr...but can i?
last yr..i remember pei mun tellin me tis "tis yr is a bad luck 4 us"...well...i dun tink is to her..but is to me......
i was wanna make sth clear...JANICE AND I HAF NTH ON..WE ARE JUZ DAD AND DAUGHTER...WE WALKED TO SCH TOGETHER IS BECOZ IT'S STILL EARLY...AND WE LIVE SO SO SO DAMN NEAR...NOT EVEN 1 KM AWAY..ONLY A FEW METRES AWAY...PPL...PLSPLSPLS....ESP TT SUM1...PLS...STOP SPOUTING NONSENSE...!
im noe u are sad..wadeva the reason is, i will accept it...i've thought thru the whole nite yst...why did u do tis..and..the ans i get 4 myself is...live wif it...u haf ur own reason..which u do not wan to say out...i dunno whether the reason 4 tis is it haf any relationship wif wad is happenin to cheryl(sry to say out ur name) yst...i've no idea...
we didnt go to her hse today...i went home after eatin my lunch wif dem,janice,rafidah,cheryl,cassan,zhi hui...cassan,rafidah and zhi hui still dunno anyting..and i dun wish dem to noe le...mayb we are nt bro and sis..tis they can noe..but..the rest..ir eally dunno...haix..i've to respect ur decsion made...
today in band, we are preparing 4 balloon hat festival liao...62 strong band now...wad a strong band we haf now...and...im sure...if we keep tis attendance well...we will achieve wad we wan nxt yr...4 syf 2007...GOLD!
today half of the band no piece...coz err...i dunno why no piece oso...haha..
the rest got piece de went 4 sectionals...the rest,saxophonist,clarinetist(sum),trumpeters(sum),percussionist and tubist stayed in music room..sir taught us the steps first...well...like "chu bing"...haha...but it seems to be easy...wif the instruemtn and playin of music...will it be ez?yesh it will be..exactly 6 more practices we haf b4 the actual rehearsal...i will be gone on 29 may and 30 may...and i tink...there will be practices..and 31 may is the rehearsal..haix...balloon hat on 4 june at sentosa...if im nt wrg..is at palawan beach..aiya..either palawan or siloso..haha..do come and support us..the piece is 'samba de janeivo' IM nt sure whether is the name spelled correctly not..haha..it's a simple piece...=)
will i haf a fun trip to genting?i tink i will..i will enjoy myself alot dere....!!!!=)1 more week to go....yay!=)
today once i reach home..i slp le...2 plus or 3 plus slp till 8 plus..im really tired...im exhausted liao...haix...
sir say mayb will haf band camp 4 balloon hat festival rehearsal leh...den i how?juz come back frm genting den go 4 band camp arhx..i will go crazy...tt is not investiture camp worx..is juz a band camp...nt band camp cum investiture camp...band camp cum investiture camp will be held at a ltr date...i supposed...
hmmm....to u..can i request sth mah??can dun say wadeva mah??i really nt use to it..sry..but if u wan, i dun mind...aiya...oso nt my prob....
i juz wan to reply to ur msn nick..if u nva appear, i will nvr be happy..coz..frm the day u are my mei, u haf been givin me lots of happiness...1 mth and 4 days...those days...u oso haf been givin me lots of happiness...and after tt too..........
today long arhx?=)..coz alot of tings to say...
i really hope tt u(i wun name who is it) will stop sayin all the nonsense stuffs and stop suspecting anymore...dun make me hate u too much..4 now, i sitll treat u as my friend...but if tis continues, i tink...our friendship will stop...but i cant afford to do it..ure in band..in my section...and...as 4 now..i still trust u...but nt as much as it is b4....i really treat u as my friend..pls...stop sayin all the tings..and stop suspecting...all along..my heart only haf ....... and no1 else.....
"Life did not turn out the way I planned it. Life never will I suppose. But I do not want to look back at the life I have lead and have regrets."quoted from mr salleh's blog again...really go read...
last but nt least, im really sry...to all of u...esp cheryl and fiona...im really sry............
yes, you know i'm watching you.
