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Thursday, August 28, 2008 / 8:37 PM

everyting is MY fault!=(

today finally end of PRELIM..hurray!sci ppr 1 was ok ok...anyway, shant blog too much abt exams....all i noe is..today is the ONLY ppr tt i haf time to check thru everyting...every single qns....how amazing...

anyway, tmr is teachers day celebration and be urself day...dunno wad to wear oso...

hmm..helped out wif the balloons wif agnes and rest...bla bla....lazy to blog...gonna fail my prelims?i dun care anymore...haix...

what's wrg?why am i such a failure..why cant any1 juz understand how i feel?why??wadeva i wan to get..i wan it to be...dere will sure be quarrels...n i juz say my disagreements...n wad i got back was juz scoldings...n sayin wad...my attitude sux wadeva...it's MY own personal stuff rite?nt urs rite?

why always i make my own decision..n dere will be sum1 unhappy wif it?bgr, family etc...why?why cant ppl juz understand how i feel?why muz i always understand how ppl feel?why?do any1 noe how terrible i feel?no..wad i hate the most is when i wan to get my rights...i juz cant..

wad u mean by i dun treat u as my mother?u noe how much it hurts?u anyhow move my tings..n im juz unhappy wif it...n i haf the right to say that i wan it change back...wad i wan is back to the original position...n dere u go over dere say say say...u say try..but why shld i try it out n waste my time?wad i wan is BACK to my normal position rite?tis is my study area...wad 4 u care so much?the room is small...no matter how u move...it will still be small...i dun care whether got space or wadeva..tis is my study area...n i wan it my way...why...why by juz wanting tt..u wan to quarrel?why in the first palce u didnt even ask whether do i really wan to move anot..n u juz move it?cant i juz say my own feelings out?why do u haf to drag till my frens?worst...janel?is dere anyting got to do wif dem?u said my attitude towards dem is diff..o btw..u didnt see how i got angry wif dem b4..did u see us quarrel?if yes..den u haf the right to say..if no, den shut ur mouth up...ok..since u say i dun treat u as my mum rite?ok fine...frm now onwards, i shant treat u as my mum..why shld i?WAD FOR I CARE SO MUCH?wadeva u say is right..n wadeva i said is wrg..wad theory is tis?cant u juz do the way i wan as tis is my study area?why muz u interfere so much in my study area?is it my fault to say i wan it my way?is it?i didnt even shout at u...im juz unhappy...esp when i came home...was feelin down...tired....n i saw tis disaster in my room...u noe how i felt?u are lucky tt i threw away my window grill key..if nt i've alrdy unlock it and JUMP down frm 22th floor...dun tink i wun..i will...it's juz whether i wan anot...

n can sum1 tell me why everytime...when i wan tings in my way...n i've alrdy said my reason...but still..i cant get it?i haf to beg...quarrel or get angry...den tings will be done...why cant it juz be done juz naturally?everyting...everyting i do...tis always happens...i admit tt im useless...im nth...but i haf the rights to get my way wif my own valid reasons..haix..

n u dare to haf the cheek to shoot me tis qn "u got study meh?"...ok fine...i didnt study...fine...i've regretted 4 studyin 4 prelims...i've regretted studyin SOOOOOO damn fuckin hard for N lvls..wad's the purpose of doin tis?in return..i got tis shot by u?(im referin to my mum)

im giving up....no1 cares anyway...wad 4 i care?even the one tt i love the most...dun even TRUST tt i got study..ok...fine....

wadeva....now i study is 4 my own..nt 4 any1 anymore...anyway, no1 will feel proud 4 me even if i pass with flyin colours...

n wad 4 i shed tears?ooo....eddy..u are juz a useless dumb person...whom only noe how to cry...ooo..u are a gay...coz u are a guy n u cry 4 tis kind of tings...

no1 noes how much u are suffering...wadeva u do is wrg...wadeva decision u make is wrg...coz dere will be ppl angry wif u...unhappy wif u...coz u are juz SOO useless....

dun come console me..thx

yes, you know i'm watching you.